Thursday, February 1, 2007

SET BACK AND DEVASTATION

My insurance sucks. They have an exclusion for morbid obesity. That means they not only will not pay for the surgery - but I can't argue to get them to change their minds. It is not a denial, its an exclusion. On to Plan B. More correctly - on to planning Plan B. I will need to talk to my father, and I have a number for a place that finances the Lap-Band - more debt is always high on my priority list (add sarcastic tone here).

In the meantime, I am overcoming the debilitating depression that has gripped me the last few months (better living through pharmacology). With less depression in my life, I can concentrate and focus full bore on diet and exercise. I am working on cleaning this weekend and setting up and exercise area (again) and I have already been eating way better in the last few months - lack of appetite from depression (which is odd for me - usually it goes the other way around) plus just more of a focus on protien and veggies... I think one of my new meds has given me an aversion to carbs and sweets which is way OK with me.

So even though I have been given this blow, I am not down and definately not out. I will keep going without the lapband, keep working on funding for it, but maybe I will find a way beyond it. The biggest problems are the plataeus and the regaining. So let's see how it goes.

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