The money struggle.

With the exclusion clause in my insurance I am in search of funding. The Lap-Band website had some interesting links about financing and being able to claim this cost on taxes. I had a conversion with my dad that I thought I was ready for but I guess I wasn't because I couldn't answer the questions he asked. I had to go back and research and think about them.

Q: Is the surgery guaranteed? Meaning, with there be weight loss if you shell out $20K?
A: Nothing is 100%. You definately had to have your mind set right (which I finally do) and adhere to a program of eating and exercising - which I am already adjusting to. Can you slip in high calorie milk shakes and sabotage your success? Yes. The main selling point, for me, is not the weight LOSS, but the PERMANENT weight loss. This surgery, this tool, makes it possible for you to MAINTAIN this eating style and weight loss.

Q: Is this what you want?
A: Yes. Again, I have already started (yet again) to change my eating habits and exercise regime. I am doing well and slowly losing weight, but even in my attempt I am stuggling - not to eat less but against the caveman body instinct to hold on to what it has. Which was explained in the seminar... your body is still caveman-like - it knows it wants to survive and when you deprive it, it will hold on to what it has... and after years of doing this - it just does it automatically - in times of famine and excess. Mostly excess. This tool, along with the program, nutritionist, exercise encouragement, support groups etc. not to mention the emotional and psychological process of getting to this decision being in the frame of mind to FINALLY GET THIS DONE, will help you overcome the caveman.

I have a list of "Why's". Why I want this. I finally sat down and wrote them all out. And more come to me everyday. I will list them in the next post.